I was forced to make one -_- (Taken with instagram)
It’s always gonna be in the back of my mind, no matter how many times I say I don’t care or that it’s fine… so the question is:
Do I keep dropping the problem whenever it arises…
…or do I drop the one thing that I have been sacrificing for just so I won’t get hurt anymore?
I don’t like the feeling of either choice -_-
i have such an array of emotions right now that i just needed to get back on here and vent.
i feel absolutely hideous and horrible for having someone so special go out of their way just to see me and i ended up not being able to go.
i feel absolutely furious and pissed off and i just want to leave and be on my own.
i feel absolutely depressed for how deprived i have been from life.
i feel absolutely numb to where i am thinking the most negative of negative thoughts to get rid of all of these stupid fucking feelings.
i know it’s just the anger, frustration, and sadness speaking, but sometimes… just sometimes… i wish for the most horrible of horrible sins…
…and i absolutely hate that. utterly utterly hate that.
Just when I thought dreams could come true…
Just when I thought true happiness is finally attainable…
it all gets blown away…
I honestly just want to crawl into a ditch and be by myself right now.
LOVEEEE
(Source: kuyajoren)
